Failure

I am a failure of the Singapore education system. I do not know where my life will lead me. Many times, I feel like a failure. Because I have failed so many times? Maybe everything happened for a reason. I felt that I have wasted so much time achieving nothing.

Actually when I looked through my old blog, then did I realise that I wanted a job in the fragrance industry. And I had gotten it back then, but not exactly the kind of position that I could advance. Then I wanted to try a finance/accounts job, I did get a contract job in accounts receivable and I was hoping that it was near my house. I did get it and it was very near my house. Everybody was kind to me although I was not exactly giving my all in that job. It was not what I was looking for ultimately. I was so bored.

I must admit it. I am scared. I am afraid. I really do not know where to go now. Where should I go? What should I do? And I have my own shortcomings and my time management sucks big time. 

One of the best advice from her is "Every time you fall down, you have to get up on your feet as fast as you can. You have to climb up on your own. And you are going to fall down many many many times." Another (surprisingly... from a nice perfumer on my last day) is "Talk to people. Listen. You can learn a lot from them."

She did suggest me to try sales. Maybe I really talked too much... too much... too much with her. Actually, I am not that kind of person who is good at talking, convincing or selling. Not good with words and not really vocal at all. I am introverted, shy and reserved. Sometimes aloof. Of course, I am not a natural salesperson but I have to start somewhere? I am extremely not comfortable when facing people. Oh goshhhy... Well... Not really a sales job but a sales & marketing job. 

But I know that I am never going to be happy being just an ordinary person. I am meant for greater things and bigger things in life.

失败并不意味着你浪费了时间和生命，而是表明你有理由重新开始。所以，不要畏惧失败。

Please let me find back my courage from within and give me the strength to carry on!!!

"You are not useless. You are not hopeless. And no matter how scared you are, you will never be alone. And deep down, somewhere, in the part of you that decided the good days and your happiness and your health were all worth fighting for, you know that, too. Hold onto that knowledge. It will see you through the worst."

Ella Ceron

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